I'm not real, but I pretend I am in words.
July 10, 2010
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What influence, if any, does your sexuality have on your creative writing process? For example, do certain sexual impluses trigger creative writing flows or alters your writing style?
This is a fascinating question, and one I might not have been able to answer with any certainty a few years ago, but with age comes wisdom, and a sex drive less prone to the upheaval from youthful trauma, etc., etc., blah di blah blah…
I have a strange brain. I used to have a lot of sex, but it wasn’t libido, per se, that drove the train. It was a need to be loved, to be given attention, no matter how temporary. And there might have been some desire for power over men involved in that as well, but we’ll save that for next session.
What I find now is that a routine life, the stresses of raising children and struggling with the mundane had dulled not only my sexual impulses, but also my creative ones. I had completely set aside any creative pursuits, and was paying a psychic price. My OCD had taken over my brain and left no room for thoughts of any kind, let alone creative ones.
I had to go through a serious, and I do mean SERIOUS, shake up to discover that I did still have the desire and (I’m going out on a limb here) the talent to write. In order to preserve my mental health, indeed my life, I can’t afford another shake up of that magnitude, but what I can do is explore new things, change the routine, do unusual things, to get the brain going again. This holds true for sex as well, since aren’t they really guided by the same drive? The drive to be immortal, to pass along one’s genes/thoughts for future generations.
Here’s another thought, sort of a two-for-one if you will: if you are in a passionate relationship (read: new), you will feel inspired beyond reason, but you’ll be too busy rutting to do anything about it. You should also know I wrote this with a two-year-old sitting on my shoulders and Sponge Bob on in the background, so take it all with a grain of salt.
Now, what was the question again?- formspring.me
